All in one day

When I came home from work and picking up three kids from three schools, I checked the mail.   There was a check made out to Joel that we were not expecting.  More adoption money!  Wow God, u continue to amaze me! Thank you for providing the way to Kaleyah Joy.  

Overwhelmed and overjoyed!

I want so badly  to sit and write for days of all the things God is teaching me .  But since I don't have much time let me quickly say that Lifesong for orphans just awarded us a matching grant!  Just this morning I was praying and asking God to provide for the adoption.  I know He's already got it covered.  However in my finite human mind I want to see proof.  God is giving me little glimpses of proof along this journey. Proof that He called our family to adopt Kaleyah Joy, proof that I'm not really in control of anything and proof that He is alive and working in our lives. And He is faithful to His promises. To God be the Glory!  Thank u Jehovah Jireh, my God who provides. 

Pink Snow cones are the best!

Its been a while since I updated. A lot has happened!  I have had technical difficulty so I apologize for the delay.  On August 2,  our family was in Dauphin Island visiting my sister.  We were on the beach. We were waiting to hear from our attorney about our birth Moms ultrasound.  We knew it may be sometime soon but we didnt know exactly when it would be.  As we were enjoying the beach, I was taking pictures for a gender reveal just in case we heard something while we were there.  Joel decided to take the kids for snow cones and I stayed at the beach with my Mom and sister.  I talked to my Mom about how I guessed we would not hear anything because it was already Friday.  I also told her that I had been planning a gender reveal where Isaiah would rap and we would post it to facebook. However, Joel would get the news first.  I wondered if he would do a gender reveal on me.  The timing was just perfect for that conversation because little did I know, Joel was planning my gender reveal at that very moment.  When he and the kids got in the car to head to Island rainbow, he had a text revealing the gender of our baby.  He didn't tell the kids but when they were ordering snowcones, he ordered a special surprise snow cone for me.  When they returned to the beach, Joel was taking pictures of the kids and I knew something was up.  Then he motioned for me to come join them.  He video recorded himself explaining to me that in the cup, which was covered with a paper bag, was the color of our baby's gender.  He told me to drink the snow cone and the gender would be revealed.  I was so excited and nervous at the same time.  As I drank the juice I saw PINK!  Its a girl. I started jumping up and down and screaming before my lips ever left the straw.  Caris my 11 year old patted me and told me to calm down but I was still jumping up and down and was so happy.  the kids were happy too.  Even little elijah said "Yeah a baby sister!"  The video is priceless and I will post it as soon as I can.

Next we celebrate Caris' 12th birthday on Labor day. We went horse back riding. The whole family went. It was a fun outing. The night before, Caris and I went to the late movie about her favorite group, One Direction.  We rang in her birthday right after the movie. It was a fun way to celebrate her last year before she is an official teenager.  UGH!  Im not ready for this! Middle school has been adjustment enough.  ONe step at a time.

Some awesome news is that baby Sam was born and is now home with his parents.  The adoption went pretty smoothly and after a two week stay in Arkansas, they are home adjusting to their new life.  Two down, one to go.  Its such a beautiful  experience to see babies that God put in your heart long before you knew them, here at home with their Mom and Dad.   Babies you have prayed for and details you prayed for come to life.  Its amazing how God moves and works in our lives.  Its personal. He knows us, He hears us and He gives us the desires of our hearts.  It has been wonderful to walk this adoption journey with these two families and its beautiful to see them now, with their babies.

Sams parents delivered our ultrasound pictures and video and a recording of Kaleyah's heartbeat.  That is a precious gift we did not originally expect.  To see her ultrasound photo and hear her heartbeat makes it more real, while still seeming like a fantasy.  Its getting closer and I will have a baby soon. Wow!  Its amazing to imagine.  I dream of dressing her and loving her and brushing her thick black hair.  I search  pinterest for ideas for baby clothes, photos and even first birthday ideas.  I cant wait to have her here.  Although I have much to do in the house to get ready.  I planned to use the month of Septemeber to concentrate on the house. Instead, Ive concentrated on work and being busy each weekend.  Oh well. It will get done eventually.

On the financial end of adoption, we were awarded a $1000 grant recently.  that was such a blessing. We are waiting to hear from Lifesong for orphans and still plan to apply for more funding. We are doing some fundraisers to help support our orphan ministry fund to help all three of our families and any others who decided to adopt in our church family.  I dont mention money to focus on our need but to give God glory for providing for this adoption through many different ways.  He is faithful.  On that we place our trust. Not on the balance of our bank account.

Last we just got back from a fun family weekend. We went to MS to my youngest cousins wedding and that was a fun event.  Visiting with the Stinson's is bitter sweet now.  Its always  good to see everyone but its a blatant reminder that my Daddy is not here and my Grandparents are not here.  However, we always have the Hope of eternal life.  I know I will be with them again whenever Jesus comes to get us or I die.  That will be a beautiful day either way.  After the wedding Saturday night we headed to Monroe, Lousianna to Duck Commander. Joel surprised the kids with this little trip.  We attended church with many of the Duck Dynasty stars.  We wmt a few of them and Isaiah and Caris got a picture made with Si.  We appreciate their show and their Faith which they openly share on the show.  They are the real deal. To see these stars and millionares in church worshipping with their family, is a true blessing.  It was a great weekend.

This coming weekend, I am looking forward to spending time with many adoptive Mommy's at the Unfailing Love conference.  We have 4 of us from church going and my neighbor who is visiting our church.  I cant wait to be encouraged and learn more about adoption and orphan care.  I know God will bless our time together.  Im really looking forward to it.

Oh and tomorrow is national talk like a pirate day!  I've heard that Krispy Kreme is giving away a dozen free donuts to everyone who comes in dressed like a pirate.  I will be pulling together my most impressive pirate costume tonight and head to Krispy Kreme in the morning. Don't be jealous.  You can go too.  Aye, aye Matey!

One down, two to go (at least)

Now it's public knowledge and I can share the awesome news.  Natalie Kate is home with her parents, Erick and Alyson.   There are two other couples on the Marshallese adoption journey with us.  We have met and talked and updated and prayed for each other.  When we were matched, we hoped and prayed the other couples would have babies before us. Erick and Alyson were matched three weeks ago.  Last Saturday morn they received a call that baby Natalie was born. A few hours later they headed to Arkansas to get their baby girl.  We had just arrived at the beach when we received a text saying she was born and they were on their way to get her.  As we have enjoyed our vacation with our family, we have been texting and calling and following the beautiful story of their adoption.  We are so thankful to our God for answering the prayers of many for this sweet family. I am so thankful to God for answering my prayers even down to small details.  As we wait for our baby to come in December it sometimes seems unreal.  But this is proof that God is moving and working in our lives and the lives of others. It is real.  So the next couple  Mike and Michelle are expecting baby Sam in August.  We continue to pray and anxiously await their adoption story to unfold. And then during the busy Holiday season, we will have our baby.  We hope to find out soon if we will have a baby boy or baby girl. We are planning our gender reveal so hopefully we will have some news soon!!  Until then my heart is full of our LORD and how He speaks to our hearts, gives us desires and brings them to fruition. One year ago I had never heard of the Marshallese people.  Now we have a missions partnership, new friends pastor Mithan and Mrs Robin Loska, and one baby home and two more on the way to be part of our church family and part of our hearts !  Praise be to our God.  I'm so thankful He allows me to be part of this adoption journey. I pray more will join us to adopt Marshallese orphans and orphans all over the world.  

Epic fails and fat lips

First of all, just let me say that I have had some very strange physical problems in the last two months.  I have been breaking out in hives multiple times per week and I have random facial swelling.  I don't mean my eyes swell or my lips swell.  I mean random parts of my face swell.   For example, one half of my bottom lip will swell up or one eye lid will swell.  Even one nostril will swell.  And when I have random swelling its never the same place twice.  U never know which part of my face will swell.  Lucky, it only lasts for a few hours.  I have been to the dr twice to try and figure out what is wrong with me.  The Dr says its due to stress.  I am going to an allergist soon to make sure these are not allergic reactions.  However, Im pretty sure i'm just a freak. 

Well we tried to Skype with our birth Mom tonight.  Let's just say it was an epic fail.  She could see us but we could not see her.  We were in a loud place so we could barely hear the translator.  We were all sweaty and things were chaotic.  Elijah was wiggling and acting silly as usual.  I felt like a crazy person smiling and waving at the iPhone without being able to see the people who could clearly see me. They were talking but I was not responding to everything they were saying because I could not hear them well.  

Our attorney told us it would be good for our birth Mom to see us and hear about our intentions to return to Arkansas yearly and allow our baby to keep in touch with her/his heritage.  He thought it would help her be confident we were the kind of family she would want to raise her baby.  

Well, we didn't get to tell her any of our future intentions.   I don't know what we said.   Who knows what she is thinking About us. I can only imagine.   She saw us as we really are.  She did not see the cleaned up, quiet, impressive family that I imagined she would see the first time we skyped.  We did not engage in a deeply meaningful conversation with her.  She saw the real, everyday, a little bit crazy Frederick family.  Hopefully we did not scare her.  

I was really bummed when it was all over and guess what?   The bottom left part of my lip started to swell. 

But the truth is, adoption is not a cleaned up, quiet and impressive situation.  It's messy, chaotic and crazy.  But God can make it into something beautiful.  God and onlyGod  is growing our family into  something beautiful through adoption.  On our own we are sweaty, chaotic and crazy but God, through His Grace, makes us beautiful, fat lip and all.  

Thank u LORD for this beautiful adoption journey. 

He Knows my name

Today I sat at my piano and cried.  I am taking lessons to help relearn all the things I learned as a young child and did not put into practice.  I want to play keyboard at church but I have a long way to go.  I am practicing some of my favorite praise and worship songs.  One song I was playing is "He knows my name". 

I have been  praying specifically about our baby.  Sometimes in adoption things are hard to understand. There are culutral differences, language barriers and legalities that don't seem to make senses.  To push through all the red tape and the obstacles requires so much prayer. I have been asking God to guide every step of this journey.  It is becomming more evident of the true miracle of adoption.  So much has to happen so many i's to dot and so many t's to cross.  There are many relationships formed and many hurting hearts to consider.  

As I sat at my piano playing the song "He knows my name", I thought about that sweet baby in the womb of our birth Mom.  We have 27 weeks to go.  So much can happen during that time.  I don't know what the outcome will be only God does.  We are aware that there are many risks.  God could have us on this journey for a purpose that is differnt that what we originally thought.  Our hopes for this journey may be different than God's plan for this journey. But we have to follow Him.  We have to accept that His ways are perfect even when we do not understand. His plan could break our hearts or bring us unspeakable JOY.  We just don't know what will happen. 

What I do know is He knows my name.  He knows my heart and my thoguths and my desires. He knows our sweet baby who is growing in the womb of someone else but who is growing in our hearts.  As far as I know now, that is MY baby.  I will pray for this little soul. I will pray for the birth Mom who is choosing life for him or her and she is choosing to give him or her a better life than she can provide. I don't know or understand what that feels like.  I dont know the depth of a Mothers pain who knows she cannot give her own child the life she so desires for he or she to have and I do not understand the sacrifice she will make to provide the best possible life for her child. 

I have no control over this child growing in another womans womb but I have control over the prayers that I  pray for both of them. I have control over the love I can offer to a Mom with a hurting heart. I have control over my obedience to do what God is leading me to do, no matter what anyone else does.  I have control over my choice to follow God's plan even when it seems to  not make sense and ohters just don't get it.  I have control over my choice to acknowlegde God and allow Him to direct my path.  I have control over my choice to lean not on my understanding. 

I do not and cannot understand the details of the miracle of adoption but I have been a witness of many miracles God has done in bringing other families together even when it seemed impossible. I am witnessing miracles and answered prayer in our journey.  Even this week, God answered a big prayer of mine. I know He's working in my life and He knows my name.

Mission Trip to Springdale Arkansas

Over the Memorial Day weekend, 23 people from our church went to Springdale, Arkansas to serve the marshallese people during their May Day celebration.  It was a great trip.  We were able to meet lots of Marshallese people, play with many adorable children and share the love of God with many people.

We set up tents.  Snow cones and hotdogs were offered at one tent. We had a prayer tent set up with tracts and Marshallese Bibles. We had a tent with games the children could play.  We had a tent where balloon animals and face painting took place. Our last tent was where a puppet show and crafts took place.

We had ages 2-60ish serving in different ways.  Everyone was busy and had lots of opportunities to interact with the Marshallese people.  One of the best things was having opportunity to support our new friend Pastor Mithan and his wife Robin.  It was apparant to us that he has very little support and help in the ministry.  He thanked us for coming and helping serve the children.

We did not get to meet our BirthMom.  We were told that she was out of town but we were able to talk face to face with our attorney.  Another couple from our group was matched just a few days before the trip and we were able to meet their birth Mom and watch as they begin to build a relationship with her that will hopefully last a life time.  Their match is an answer to prayer and their baby is due in August!  Wow, we may have a Marshallese baby in our church this summer.  God's timing is amazing. 

It was so amazing to me that God had brought us to this place, one step at a time. First was the call to adopt and my surrendering to it. Then the following God to the Marshallese people group. Then becoming ministry partners wtih Pastor Mithan and Cross Church.  Now we are here. Playing with beautiful Marshallese children and talking to parents, grandparents and many Marshallese people.  Here we are looking around at all God has done in our lives. It's amazing to see His plan unfold detail by detail and realize He has chosen you to be part of it. It's overwhelming.  It's amazing.  It's beautiful.  I'm so very thankful that He is allowing me and my family and friends to be part of His plan.

Wow!  I stand amazed, confident that God has led us here.  There is no way we would be here if He didn't. I can't wait to watch as God leads us through His plan for us as He continues to amaze me and perform miracles, one detail at a time.